moving a disabled particle system that's set to distance emission

no matter how hard i disable this particle system it still emits particles in a line when i move its transform.

heres my code:

     function load()
     {
         boltParticles.emissionRate=0;             // try to stop it from emitting by making it not emit.
         boltParticles.enableEmission = false;     // try to stop it from emitting by turning the emission off.
         trailRender.enabled = false;
         transform.position = hand.position;     // move into position everything is off by this point. yet it still emits.
         transform.rotation = hand.rotation;
         boltParticles.Clear();                    // i even clear the particles, and they still show up.
         rigidbody.velocity=Vector3.zero;
     }
     
     function fire()
     {
         targetVec = pointer.position;
         fired=true;
         trailRender.enabled = true;
         renderer.enabled = true;
         boltLight.enabled = true;
         collider.enabled = true;
         boltParticles.emissionRate = BPEMRate;     // set the emission rate back to normal
         boltParticles.enableEmission = true;     // turn it back on
     }
 
     function explode()
     {
         fired=false;
         renderer.enabled = false;
         collider.enabled = false;
         rigidbody.velocity=Vector3.zero;
         explodeParticles.Emit(20);
         explodeLight.range=10;
     }

code is ran in this order:

load >> fire >> explode

then it repeats if u click again.

i have come across this before, but i was always able to solve it by turning it back on after a yield waitForEndOfFrame();. but in this case i'm getting a bunch of coroutine errors, and that's over my head right now.

my question is this: is there any way to stop it from emitting during the re-position, without using coroutines?