Finally, it’s the last day of this horrible, atrocious year and I think like everyone else, I cannot be even more excited to finally see it come to an end!

Alright, I won’t get too angry in this journal because not only does it seem pointless and petty now, but because it’s also not worth the extra energy. Either way, still grateful to see this shittastic year end.

Let’s start off with the elephant in the room: the COVID-19 pandemic. Oh yeah, this caused everyone fucking stress and misery, including me. Whether it be mentally, physically, socially, we can all agree that this pandemic was not nice to us and it affected us all in any way; shape or form. :( Not only were some out of jobs, events were cancelled or postponed, multiple states and countries around the world were either in quarantine, had strict lockdown rules, or both; shops, restaurants, whatever were closed down, deaths kept increasing because of said pandemic, and the list keeps going on and on and on.

Furthermore, we also dealt with numerous celebrity deaths once more. From Kobe Bryant to Sean Connery to possibly the most saddest of them all: Chadwick Boseman. Speaking of death, it was heartbreaking to see not only my family’s dog Baby be put down in front of my very own eyes, but two days later, my own grandmother would pass away from various illnesses we couldn’t even try to cure; no matter how hard she and us kept fighting to help her feel better. :( It still breaks my heart to this day, even if my family and I coped with them both being gone. T^T

Not to mention, there was me losing friends over small mistakes I made and mental health being a total bitch to me and causing me to take it out on my family, friends, and even my own BF :( and in the end, only lead me to numerous meltdowns and crying fits.

However, despite this all, there were some good, redeeming qualities in the end. I got to see Nick one last time before the pandemic hit, I quit my sucky ass job and then I was able to apply for disability, and ended up being approved for it, HBO Max launched and it was awesome, felt good to exercise again, found myself new friends and even reunited with some old ones, I bought myself a car for Nick and I (will explain later), improved on art a bit and even got some new supplies to help me; and I got back into writing a bit one by one. :)

The goals I’m hoping for next year as well as the rest of the decade shall be is to keep focusing on art and writing as well pick up some new hobbies and get back into old ones, start eating healthier and keep working out until I hit my main goal, be more responsible and be less stress inducing, focus more on original content/OC stuff and start developing my own series, writings, and characters, go back to school, and most importantly: Finally have my beloved PrinceKapitan move in with me and maybe someday, marry him. ^^

That’s all I have for today. I hope we can all end the year on a good note, despite its crappiness and enter 2021 with caution because who knows what the future will hold. We still have a vaccine to get moving along, we’re gonna have a new president in office; whether we like it or not (obviously everyone I almost know is the former. e3e), places hopefully around the world will open up again, and sooner or later, I hope to be more responsible and improve on not just art, but also on my personality and attitude because this year just wasn’t nice to me at all. ^^;

Please everyone, have a Happy New Year and please be safe and stay strong for the future. <3